katheebah

As an artist I live a cursed existence, to only bask in the satisfaction of my greatest achievements for the shortest of times. It is at the height of my revelry that I begin the feel the all too familiar tug of responsibility and inevitability to once again pick up the pencil and outdo myself, forever toiling, momentarily satisfied; I am, The Beast of Burden.

I only got where I am because of how many people told me i sucked.
I'll only get to where I want to go because of my immense standards.
Criticism. Positive, negative, all of it. Let it motivate you. Through spite, Through strife, Through desperation, make art your life.

It's been a while.
My first real semester of college is wrapping up.
i'm actually procrastinating a particularly pugnacious final for Eng 102.
10 page paper due tomorrow. probably at 10:15 or something.

I feel like i'm being cheated really. we don't learn too much in that class. the main focus is on the ridiculous paper that i'm currently avoiding.
I also made a Tumblr. Follow it if you like, i'm under the same name here. i'd love to follow you and re blog your hilarious tidbits.

I feel like my life has been a sort of roller coaster. a lot of ups and downs in quick succession. i'm determined not to let the downs get the best of me, and determined to not let the ups carry me away.

lately I've been very active in the fabrication of tee shirt graphics. i am the artist of a burgeoning tee shirt company. if you've a Facebook check us out sometime:www.facebook.com/pages/Rise/12…

i probably wont be touching manga style drawing for a while. if at all. i'm learning (very slowly albeit) that the world although it can be a moderately  warm place, is quite cold. life is a struggle in which every moment counts. every action fires of several hundred other reactions.

I don't want to seem whiny, or to complain to my followers if they're reading this, lord knows they will, are currently, or already have gone through whatever this is that i'm going through. it's not dangerous at all, it can be, but for the most part it isnt. it's just aggravating when the poorly constructed foundation you set for yourself let's yet another shingle fall. but alas, who am i to blame but myself?

anyways.

i'm in need of capital. i'm very certain that i'll be becoming more active on sites like threadless.com and dbh.com.

Humorously enough, i feel like i'm no longer in control of the pencil, or brush, or copic marker, rather the pencil is now deciding for me, and it's not too bad, i just miss the control.

man it's been a while since I've written one of these. college is nice, business degree, because i gotta have the clothing line.

effectively combine my love for money, art and cool things heeeheehee.

going to be getting my hands on Photoshop cs5 quite soon, maybe a job will help with my swag, lol.

I really hate computers sometimes though, i mean i'g getting really good at vectorization and all, and I've put a considerable amount of hours in learning to, but i nothing beats that feeling of the pencil on paper. speaking of which i need like sharpies and pigma microns, and v5's and just felt tipped maskers actually. i prefer felt because i am heavy handed when it comes to inking (BUT I SWEAR I WAS BORN TO BE A MANGA-KA'S INKING ASSISTANT) and i scratch up the paper. i LOVE pigma microns, little overpriced AS SHIT tan markers ha. i need one that's just FAT F-A-T man, like it needs to just sweat ink, lol because i use alotta blacks now a days and it's pretty damn rudimentary using a .05 point to fill in a spot. haha

but yeah, it's all good, money is the only problem here; but hey: "Starving Artist"

It's been a mad while since i posted one of these. college is nice. no military for me for right now, although it's still on my mind. i feel like i've been doing waaaaaay too much digital work. Rise and company is doing quite well. collabing with a former rival group, so we're helping, to help ourselves. i think i'm going to start my anatomy training now. gotta practice drawing my mac tens, uzi's biceps tri's lats delts, lol. i'm feelin quite good.